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I wish I could reach you sometimes I wish I could see past where we are If I could touch your hand just once I could remember who you are or were or might have been or could have been I could see you alone and surrounding everything you had your world handed to you silver coated and serrated you held on so tight and you let it slip through your hands you lost a battle you weren't willing to even fight and still you bare the scars

I'd love you If I could If I knew how to let you near me you touch me and I'm still completely surrounded by you you speak to me and I can't hear past your words everything I could want to know I find in you you break through every wall strong as stone and you lay me down so gently you couldn't bruise me if you tried I could be closer to you than anything If only I knew how to I'd stay with you forever

I'll wait when there's no time left And I'll stand still when the world is rushing around me Nowhere between then will I find you And everywhere else will you be I'll stray from the safety of comfort And I'll fall effortlessly to my knees Dancing horizontally against the earth And awaiting the rapture beneath

I hear the things you say If I have your baby then you'll stay But I know it's not for me You just don't want to turn out like your father did And that's fair enough But not good enough for me And I know I know I know I should have stopped this long ago For the first time I said no And it breaks my heart

I imagined you to be taller Your skin darkened Sallowed Ash-like And yet you are unexpected here Picturesque Such elegance and etiquette in your movement A dancer almost I'd call you Beautiful beyond compare I'd not be frightened by you, if I knew not your purpose here I'd like to pretend, for a moment, and allow myself to be taken in by such magnificence Your eyes should have been coal black Your touch should have been ice cold Your words should have been vulgar and fierce… But your eyes here are gold and clear, Glistening like diamonds And your touch to me is comfort Whispering words so gently, You appear a lullaby M

It's the last day on earth and I'm sitting on the edge watching the clouds reach down to the ocean a satin blur a smokey stare and you're no where to be found or seen a single raindrop to ripple such still mirrored reflection a glass emotion looking down and nothing starring back at me

I feel numb I wish I could shake these words from my mind and start new Tell you what I want to tell you Wash this water colour canvas clean And start again with a base of blue Like your eyes Deeper than the ocean I hold onto the surface because I fear ill drown if I let go Fall Sink Completely surrounded by you What happens when blue turns to black I feel And I shake And I’m screaming in my head at you Painting your name in every colour To match your eyes And you’re looking through me Like crystal And I break

The end of one thing was the beginning of another It started with a kiss, In the midst of night And it was Insufferable What led an empty battle now faltered at mere touch And an army strong of thousands could not have shielded from such Indiscretion Her arms moved around his body whilst he did all but stand in perfect stillness Torn Impossible A passion as fierce as fire soaring through a city of angels Falling Fallen Knowing they belonged together Yet too unforgiving in themselves to remain She clung to him as though without his touch she would fade into nothing Become but ashes in the wind as night faded into day Such stre

Of all the things I’ve ever known, loving you was the hardest And of everything I’ve had to do, letting you go seems to me impossible It’s been so long I’ve turned to you every time I fall That I almost don’t know where to turn anymore If not to you then to where?? I close my eyes to miss you and when they open the world stands still I breathe in every memory only later to forget A feeling unlike any, no word could possibly justify But softly you could kiss to me and silently give into me Hold your hand away this time I’m inclined to reach for you And I should tell you once and only I should tell you

And It would be my distorted view of the world that captured such moments Your every thought, action, movement, relapsed and romanticized in my mind I made you to be beautiful I made you to be indestructible I made you to be complete yet you were lacking in every sense I wanted you to be, and I wanted you to be mine ...this is as quiet as it gets...