~the-beautiful-red

miss my friends

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What defines a person??

Is it what they wear? What they eat? Where they shop? Where they work?

Are any of these things enough to make or break a character??
So many people judge you for the things you have around you, so much so they don’t even bother to see past.

I believe who you are and what you do are completely different in the sense that you always have been, and always will be who you are, no matter how much you change, it’s still you, perfectly separate from any other and unique in the fact that you are.

What you do, that will always change, and you will never always do the one thing for your entire life. I don’t understand how someone can judge your entire person on what you do; where you work. How can your job define who you are?? It seems a stereotypical and bias view that a job holds more worth than your person. Policemen stand to correct wrong in the world, keep the peace, and protect the innocent, so on so forth. Does that automatically mean that because that is their job description that that makes them a better person than say a bank teller or a hairdresser or a cleaner?? Why does holding a certain position give you more worth??

I am so tired of being judged by what I wear, who I’m around, where I work, how I chose to spend my time.

Because that’s what it is.

My choice.

It doesn’t make me any less of a person because its not up to someone else’s standards, and I will not mould myself around someone else, and I will not change and deny myself so that I’m considered ‘good enough’ in someone else’s eyes.

If I allow myself to form according to someone else’s opinion of worth, then I lose myself.

And I have more respect for my existence than to be lowered to less than I am.

I am.

Me.

And I will continue being.

Shouldn’t we all??


(and i want my mood to be somewhat insightful, unsatisfied, dismissive, pissed off, and that quiet calm you get from it.. but they dont make them that complex)

I was electrified by your eyes as they froze
Inviting me inside of your life to grow

Everlasting setting sun
You’re my angel, you’re the only one
No one close and nothing compares in the end
We will be together again

I'm so mesmerized by the light you expose
Igniting a fire deep inside of my soul

Everlasting setting sun
You’re my angel, you’re the only one
No one close and nothing compares in the end
We will be together again

Darkness shall fall with the strength of us all
Darkness shall fall
Darkness shall fall with the strength of us all
It shall fall

I raise my white flag
It’s the last flag I’ll ever raise
Don't stay away
Staring at you and all you are
I believe
Yeah I believe
Yeah I believe

(So much sadness, what happened to happiness...)
Everlasting setting sun
You’re my angel, you’re the only one
No one close and nothing compares in the end
You’re my angel, you’re the only one

We will be together again
We will be together again

:Roadrunner United - Army Of The Sun:

I'm sad..
The type of sad that doesn't go away..
It just, lingers..

you'll never know what it meant.

you'll never know what it means.

you'll never know why.

because you've never known me.